okay well first off...for some reason, *The object of my affection*, which is a brilliant movie in my opinion... but it has been playing heaps lately and i swear i have seen it like 4 times in the last two weeks...lol... i dont mind though... its a great love story i think...i hate jennifer aniston in the movie especially her character, i just want to reach through the screen and slap the shit right out of her... god she can be so irritating...but anyways enough on that matter...so as for my meds, they are finally all straightened out... and im doing heaps better in that area... having issues with my therapist renee...but its seemingly a nomral problem lots of others have in this country with therapists... too many crazy people not enough shrinks...lol...she just cant devote the time to her singular clients that is needed, well i dont feel anyways, she has been promising to do things for me, draw up papers, us talking about certain things... things like that, and none of it is getting done, she seems very scatter brained about things... but tis all good...now on to other fronts...

I have a job... a great job...(well im assuming its great, i applied for it because i wanted it so its met my great requirements)...so yeah its a long story in getting to the point where i was officially hired...okay so heres how it goes... local nursing home, that caters to alzheimers and dementia patients, are seeking resident care aides (RCA's) to assist with the elderly patients, the postion was originally for overnights... so i go in fill the application out, and then a couple of days later when i got the chance i ran my resume into them because they needed it... so about two hours later the administrator calls me, her name is sue, and she tells me that all the RCA postions are filled, but they are looking for cooks, and from my resume she sees that i have the experience and wants me to come in for an interview to be a cook there... so thats fine with me i go in the next day for my interview... so in the interview, Sue is there, as well as Gwen who is the director of food services so shes in charge of the kitchen and everything that goes on in it...also gwen is apperanlty leaving April 1, and so they were looking ot fill her role, the director of food services...so in my interview they had a woman who was a possible candidate for the position... which was fine with me... so i had my interview everything was going great, and then the woman who was being considered for gwens postion, had to leave and Sue said to me, that it seems im overqualifed for the cook postion she was basically upgrading me to interviewing for the director of food services position...so after a few days and not hearing anything back...(of course my nerves where frayed at this point the constant waiting to find out whats going on) so i finally called in to talk to gwen to see if they had made a decision, but gwen had already left and so i asked for sue, to see if she knew anything... well sue redirected me, without my knowledge to another person...so as im talking to her, shes like ok heres the deal... sue sent you to me, because she wants you hired as a RCA, i have a postion opening up possibly, and she said its full time 3-11.. im like great.. shes like come in and get your paperwork and so i do, and shes like you got to go get a physical and a TB test, and blah blah blah, cross the t's and dot the i's... so shes like, i will find out if the postion is open later (its about midafternoon at this point) and so shes like give me a call in a little while, so im fine with that...shes like either way im gonna hire you, so im like ok... so i call her later and shes like no the postion isnt open, shes like but i have one opening next week, so at this point my hearts a little shaky because id like to start ASAP... well shes like but as soon as you bring me your paperwork and your physical and TB test are done and clear, bring your papers in and you will start work, shes like ill have you work this week, and we will call it orientation... lol... so rock on... im kinda glad that i didnt get the director of food services job though.... i would have loved it, and its an amazing job and its also amazing to even be offered or considered for the postion but theres soo much stress and hassle that go along with being in charge and running every aspect of a kitchen...but in any event... i got the job helping the older people... and i work there full well knowing that no matter how nice and wonderful i am to them, they more than likely wont remember the next day, and in all honesty, some might not even remember me in five minutes... but i dont really care... its not gonna change how i feel... there will be such a self sense of achievment and worth that i will get that it doesnt matter the gratitude i get from the patients... it is self gratitude, and that at the end of my day... thats more important than them remembering me when they are going... if i can bring joy and happiness to there life every day anew then so be it...thats all i can hope for... even if they dont remember it :)... at the end of the day, i will be going to sleep with a smile on my face because i know i accomplished something with my day, and not only that, i will also at the end of the day be able to say that i have done something to help someone else that couldnt help themselves and i would feel very rewarded with that knowledge alone :)...